That Swell in Your Heart

That swell in your heart.

That alien, dull, indescribable ache,

that leaves you short of breath.

Like your chest cavity is filled to the brim,

with something that you can't pinpoint,

what it exactly is.

It happens everytime,

he says 'I miss you',

or when you simply think of him.

You fight,

you feel that dull ache.

You merajuk,

you feel that dull ache.

You make-up,

you feel that dull ache.

How do you know for sure,

that the ache comes from your heart?

You don't.

But everytime you think of him,

that ache comes,

your heart thuds slower,

and it feels heavy.

Heavy, with that feeling,

you simply can't describe.
That dull ache.

That swell in your heart.

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Matters of the Heart

He calls her 'sayang', 'baby' etc.

She thinks he really does.

He gets jealous if she tell him she's going for a movie with another guy friend.

She thinks he's really jealous.

He pulls out her chair when she gets up from the table.

She thinks he's not faking it.

He lets her go on the escalator first.

She thinks he's really a gentleman.

He sings to her in the morning, just in time for her to wake up. While playing his acoustic guitar.

She thinks he's a real softie.

He says he's looking for 'cinta mati'.

She thinks he's really looking for it.

He says he's looking for a girl who can accept him for who he really is.

She thinks he's sincere.

He says he's not a good guy.

She thinks he's telling the truth.

He says he wants to change for the better.

She doesn't know when (or if) he's going to change, at all.

So, the question now is:

To jump, or not to jump?

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A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life to be thankful for a good one